i compare myself to others

to see how bad a situation i am in

not necessarily a bad thing

but it sure isnt a good thing

i ask myself why others are able to do something while i cant

its definitely not because my capabilities are below theirs

it just so happens to turn out this way thats all

but i just cannot accept the absurb fact

that im incompetent because of it

cause i know im not

i'd finally came to a conclusion that my life is bad, not because i allow it to, but because im very unlucky. maybe there's a certain person whos acting as my jinx and is making my life suck more than it should. even my best friend says that im just too plain unlucky and i should try to find the person whos jinx-ing me, haha.

but there is just one thing that i should be happy over: that i have many friends, not acquaintances, but friends. friends who are genuinely concerned about me. regardless army, pri sch, sec sch, jc friends, i have many whom i can relate to and tell my troubles to, not just to talk cock and sing song with.

i should enjoy my life more

i should look on the brighter side of things

i should dispel the emo-ness within me

i should get over the series of unhappy and unfortunate events

i should be contented with things as they are

i should be happy