life has been rather monotonous recently.
studying more or less sums up my life, though i dont think that those studying time i put in was effective nor productive.
i really wanna do well for prelims and more importantly A lvls.
this is really the biggest step that i have to take before entering army i guess.
what if i fall, i dont wanna think of the consequence.
there is always a possibility of falling, i realli hope i dont,
i realli dont want to.

swim results are out. might not be what i expected it to be, maybe better, maybe not. all i can say is that there are many who have comparable capabilities and to filter them out was necessary yet painfully realistic. welcome to the real world, is how i'd put things, though junhong had put it in a more subtle way than i'd prefer. all the best to the year 1s, work tgt and bond tgt. bonding is the most important in team building. the year 2s bonded as u can see, so u guys shld work towards it too. jiayou and i'll be missing u guys =)) i'd already started missing the year 2s alr. argh.

i dont knw why but after the MRI scan my hearing seem to be more sensitive, not in a good way alrite. there was once when we had to do the MOE survey thing and my everyone was laughing at jinzhi i think, and i felt that the noise was so unbearably loud and piercing, lol. hopefully the doc can help me out on the 12th. wish me luck ppl.

i dont knw whether i shld take the step
scared of what might happen as a result
i dont wanna be of a disappointment
nor do i wanna be disappointed
i feel so pressured
so obliged to give in
i dont knw wad to do