it just wasnt meant to be

Thursday, March 13, 2008

i dont know whether its the relentless rain,
the fact that im thinking too much,
or maybe its just me,
but im feeling melancholic and i just feel like tearing.

swim camp was quite fun, with the Name-Game and bonding with the swimmers and chatting with dandan and lynn till 5.30a.m. although i said some wrong stuff at certain time and i didnt manage to bond with sherman and nick as much as i wanted to, i guess things are ok and will remain that way for now.

dance concert next week and i dont think that i perfectly remembered my steps yet. i dont wanna get scolded by zaki in front of the entire dance club again just because i let my guard down once. this is also my last concert and i want to perform the best that i can and not regret after that. people coming to the afternoon show please dont think that it sucks, cause the atmosphere is just not there i guess.

there's march common test tmr and i haven even studied one third of what im supposed to. i really had no time to do that and im just going to blame myself for that. at least now i know that i need more self-discipline and take every opportunity possible to study.

i dont know how long i can hang in there...

im just tired of thinking of you...

JoNz,
tired of it all...
8:44 PM

am i moving on...