it just wasnt meant to be

Saturday, September 15, 2007

todae was super unproductive, din manage to complete much. went out to study with yuan, sweeliang, jaren and valerian at bishan library initially bud went jaren's hse in e end. dun noe why bud juz cant seem to get everything into my head, esp econs. its juz so dry and useless tt it juz turns my brain off, lol. bud no choice lah, still need to study and get gd grades for it, which is like 100% impossible, haha.

i need to focus and i need to mug, bud i cant seem to be able to do tt cause my self-discipline is juz not there and lots are on my mind. studying is realli not for me. lets juz get over and done with for promos and then i can worry bout swim, dance, op and pw. well, life is juz as busy as ever i guess.

ok, juz a random note. i felt like a jerk on fri when i was in chem tutorial. i dun noe why bud i felt tt i was treating ppl badly. i even asked huat whether i was a jerk, lol. i dun noe wads wrong with me lah, maybe juz paranoid, hopefully its not true lah. there's juz this irritating feeling, lol.

i'll end off with something i wrote, haha.

Life is full of problems,
few of which i can solve.
Competent as i may seem,
still these obstacles prove to be unresolved.
One after another, these problem surface,
creating barriers that none of us can erase.
Trapped,
as lonely as one can be.
Living in solitude,
sadder than anyone should be.
When will this subside,
when will this end?
I need to know...

shiNe

JoNz,
tired of it all...
10:08 PM

am i moving on...