it just wasnt meant to be

Sunday, April 1, 2012

when i have too much time at hand, i tend to think, a lot, and then become emo. well, it has happened again and I'm once again emo.

to whoever is reading, you are probably one of the rare people who still do, and even I'm fascinated that you are on this site, haha.

well, i tried applying to NUS Med again, but guess what, the deadline closed before i could even apply - meaning that i did not know that the application period for uni students is different from that of jc kids. can't say i was happy with myself for allowing this to happen, but then again, maybe its fate that I'm not meant to apply for med or even become a doc, now or ever.

then i see my friends' photos on fb - dentistry, med, law, overseas. and it hit me that it could have been me, i probably don't deserve this, and somehow, i feel that i brought this on myself, to be stuck here in singapore, in ntu, in nbs, not that its not a good school of course.

I'm depressed, maybe all the way till exams over i'll be depressed, emo. lets try, lets just try to brave through this without killing myself, not literally of course.

JoNz,
tired of it all...
10:05 PM

am i moving on...

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012

what does it have installed for us?

i just hope it is a mixture of good, bad, bland, and everything else, so that my life would be eventful and enjoyable.

it's too naive to think that it will comprise of flowers, spice and everything nice, cause life isnt fair, was never fair, and will never be fair.

so lets toast to a happy 2012!

:)

JoNz,
tired of it all...
5:41 PM

am i moving on...

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

why must i wait 8 years before i get to try to do what i want.

life is just plain unfair,
and i dont need someone to tell me that cause i know it.

JoNz,
tired of it all...
12:24 AM

am i moving on...

Friday, July 1, 2011

im feeling off lately
nonchalent, emo, and just cant be bothered abt everything
i know i need to move on from my setback
but im just so stuck right now

gotta force myself to move on
somehow
life's not that bad
but its not looking too rosy

im jealous of ppl who have it all too
like seriously have it all
smart, athletic, happily attached, happy family
i forgot to mention smart, and goodlooking too
ok, maybe some bad stuff i dont know of
cause ppl like to believe that god is fair
maybe, maybe not
im just jealous
havent felt like that in a long time
i think im having some hormonal surge, lol
moving on...

JoNz,
tired of it all...
12:29 AM

am i moving on...

Sunday, June 12, 2011

i'll be fine, i'll be fine

JoNz,
tired of it all...
12:11 AM

am i moving on...

Sunday, May 29, 2011

It hurts, so bad..

JoNz,
tired of it all...
1:30 AM

am i moving on...

Friday, May 20, 2011

why is it that my all isnt enough, that baring my heart and laying it out isnt enough, that being honest just falls short of their standard. i've given it my all, my 100% and even more, yet i didnt make the cut. is it just me, or is it just me?

welcome to the club emo nemo

JoNz,
tired of it all...
7:21 PM

am i moving on...